Send it back

I am feeling so lonely tonight. I am lost again. I am still alone after a year. I have tried to move on and am still alone. I can't stomach the men that I have dated over the last little while. I don't think I can force myself on another date again. So when this happens I miss D. I spent some time tonight going over my friend's wedding website. I am happy for her. I love looking at this life she is creating for herself. But in all honesty I can't help but think about the life that I want that I am still so far from having. I want the baby, and the home, and the husband. That is what I want. So again I am putting it into the universe. Send it back to me universe! Send it back!