Not so broken hearted anymore

I have been MIA lately... for whatever reason I stopped living my broken heart and started just living. I made a group of new friends who are amazing. They are the my new little family. I started working really hard. Loving my job. I finished decorating my home. I just became busy with life. And then I made a mistake. That turned into another one... that has turned into something bigger than I expected. An innocent touch turned into ... well do I want this guy? I have managed to fall for the most inappropriate man on the face of the earth. Now normally I would say why? or how could I do this again? But I am more enlightened. More attuned to myself than I have ever been. I am aware that I pick unavailable men to protect myself from being hurt. It is a sure fire way to feel like I am never being rejected. It is the circumstance and not me that causes the relationship to end. What a safe way to love. Or to like. Or to do whatever the hell it is that I am doing. So the relationship ended to much complication and continued flirting. It is really feeling like we have created a no win situation, where when we are left alone to our own devices things go in the completely wrong direction. I need clarity on the situation and space. Which is exactly what I am getting right now... a whole week of clarity and space.