Afraid of Change, who me?

I am sort of renowned for my fear of change. I never do well with encroaching change, even if it is meant to be positive change. This does not go to say that I do not roll with the punches when they fly, and that I as of late I have really proven that I am capable of change. Since this devastating change with D I am now secure in the knowledge that I am fully capable of picking myself up and dusting myself off. I can handle change. I just don't have to like it. So it is with this that I am taking a giant step forward in my career. I am going to fight for the life that I want. I didn't like my place at work, and it just took some focus of energy. I expended so much energy trying to make D and I work. I lived and breathed our relationship in order to make it even be a semblance of a relationship. I have found that since I started putting that energy into other things like finding a job that will make me happy, and bring less financial difficulty I am succeeding. I was told about a year before D and I broke up by my sister's psychic that if I managed to move away from D I would find the things that would make me happy. Like love. She said she could see that I was in a dark room and I couldn't see a way out when I was with D. She also said that the man for me was just outside the door lurking, waiting for me to see what I really wanted. I just had to really move on from D. I left there carrying this hope in my heart but also scoffing at it. Afraid of a life without D. Wanting him to be my person and also knowing at the same time I wanted more happiness in my life than what he was giving me. I am excited about the opportunity to find out what I can bring into my life. What happiness can I make? I hope that this job will be a step in the right direction. I am nervous but carrying high hopes.
On another note I would like to say just eight more sleeps till Paris!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!