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I just spent the weekend at my friends' wedding. It was beautiful french garden party themed wedding, with beautiful white lights, a live three stringed quartet and great company made this one of the loveliest weddings I have ever attended. Two long tables were set with white linen, candles and beautiful fresh flowers in an assortment of colours. The tables were topped off with basket laden with rustic bread, yummy cheeses, olives,  jams, butter and a bottle of wine. It was the perfect appetizers and a very unique touch.

I had a fantastic time and couldn't help but feel a little envious at all the happy couples surrounding me. I would like to be able to find someone. I miss D when I got to things like this, I imagine the wedding we would have had. I think we would have been happy together if it had been another time, another place. I think our wedding would have been beautiful, envious to others. If we had only started differently, worked harder, loved better. But then I would be married to a man capable of such hate towards me. Such cruelty. So will I have a chance at love? Will someone love me like the people I saw at the wedding. Will I have a person to walk through life with? And if I don't will I be happy in the end.