A partner

I am sitting in bed, sipping on coffee with Bailey's and generally enjoying my morning. I finally slept in, I just gave myself over to staying in bed and really refused to give up. I am going to spend the day in my apartment trying to clean up and settle in. I have decided to get a roommate to help me with my mortgage... save myself from being house poor. So I posted an ad on craigslist and usedvictoria and am hoping someone I really want to live here will be able to move in. I am dreaming of someone who really isn't home much. I know how that sounds but I have really enjoyed living in my apartment all by myself. Doing what I want, when I want it.
I guess in the deepest part of my heart what I really want is to meet a man, who fills this hole that has recently been growing. I want to have a relationship where he lives with me, and we build a life together in this apartment. That is what I really want. A partner. Why is it everywhere I go there seems to be couples? All my friends are in couples. They are part of a team. And yet I am alone, still. Dreaming of calling D and trying to work things out. It's crazy.