There is something so soothing about working in the garden; I become completely immersed in what I am doing. Just feeling a sense of accomplishment as things grow. I had my first strawberry ripen yesterday. I have been watching the plants patiently waiting for something to happen.
I was so proud of my skills as it grew before my eyes and it was so ripe and delicious. I think that perhaps the thing about gardening is there are obvious results. Life is so complicated and difficult at times. Gardening offers time outside, in solitude, while still keeping busy both mind and body. In the end there is something beautiful. Sometimes edible. Lately things seem like they are swirling out of control with me; I have a new roommate who has two children and they are moving in shortly. I miss D every day and wonder why he doesn't miss me. I spend an incredible amount of time alone thinking. I am not feeling very satisfied with my AVI volunteering. I need a new job. It just feels like I need some time away to regroup. Perhaps regenerate. Gardening offers a little beauty in my day and a moment of respite however brief it may be.
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