Ms. McBeal I think you have a point

Today felt like summer. It was hot enough that I had to take my cardigan off while walking home from work. I started my morning off in the heat, looking up at the sun and smiling. I picked my playlist on my ipod based on my sunny disposition and found myself listening to songs like "Fire" by both Bruce and then the version by The Pointer Sisters. Summer rockin out while walking to work. I ate lunch on the patio in the sun. I put sunscreen on and actually thought about reapplying. I used my fan in my bedroom. I am now sitting on my bed with my patio door wide open and a nice warm air with a hint of flowers is drifting in. Summer is here. And of course this also makes me miss him. Yes I know EVERYTHING seems to make me miss him but I think this is somewhat valid. I miss hot sex. Summertime sex with him. I miss picnics, especially in open fields. I miss sleeping in the backseat of my car with him in a field somewhere in Nanaimo. I miss "our" spot under the canopy of trees right by the exit into Nanaimo. The list goes on and on.
I went to a friends house tonight to watch Ally McBeal. That is a great show. I mean "bygones people, bygones". Seriously brilliant. Anyways the point of this rant is that while I was watching the pilot episode I was thinking this is no longer something I can not relate to. She is supposed to be a twenty-eight year old woman, starting a career, dealing with the loss of her first real love and trying to figure out who she really is. When I first watched this show I was a teenager. I thought it was hilarious and great, but I didn't know what it was to be in your late twenties and still feel like you don't really have it yet. Twenty-seven and still picking the path. Ally says something wise at the end of the episode though; she talks about liking the turmoil, liking the challenges, even the drama, because it means she is still on the journey. That she is attempting to live the authentic life, whatever that may be for her. Now I am paraphrasing, but I think her message was essentially that. Live the journey, cause in the end the getting there is life. Food for thought.
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