Shitty day again. I mean you think things are starting to look up and then they just get really hard. I don't really feel like giving it more time than it deserves. It is suffice to say I have a crazy stepbitch who puts me down to empower herself. Why do people do that? Say the most hurtful things they can to each other? OK this is not the topic of the day though. I have been wallowing in this feeling since last night. So instead I am going to focus on a positive thought.....
OK I have been sitting here for several minutes and what I have come up with is I am going to start a wish list. Throw these ideas out into the Universe in a very Oprahesque moment. The things that I want in the near future.
Sleep. Real sleep with no tormenting dreams or waking up to the absolute loneliness. I also would love to have a full night.
Some sunshine. OK things that I can make happen. Go on a vacation to some sunshine.
A garden with some pretty flowers. Maybe a tomato plant.
A clean home.
A reading nook with a comfy chair to read in.
A whole morning where I do not hurt.
A haircut. I maybe even want to cut my hair really short against the advice of many. Just for a change. But maybe I will regret that decision....
Just a little less aching in my heart. I will settle for a little less at a time.
A visit with my friends.
A hug. And a good cry that ends in relief not more crying.
True Blood second season on DVD. Totally addicted.
Ok that is my silly little list. But it made me feel better. All totally attainable within a reasonable amount of time. I am feeling a tiny bit better having thought about some nice things. Damn Oprah you do know what you are talking about.
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