I very recently had my heart ripped out of my body. I know everyone says that they have been there... this is nothing new. But it is new to me. And it has been horrific. So I am going to attempt to write often about how I am going to get back my happiness. Get me back. Because I found out recently you have to keep breathing, and that you don't die from this.
Monday, May 10, 2010
I call BULLSHIT
I am tired of people putting their shit out there on other people. I see this happen too often. Tonight it happened to me. This is not the only time this month that I have had to stop and take pause because of the way someone has talked to me. Tonight I was asked to leave a friend's house because her partner is crazy and thinks we are having an affair. 1) I am not a lesbian. 2) I have learnt my lesson. 3) I am not a lesbian. Not that I have any problem with being a lesbian. One of my dearest friends is. I am just not. Do not put your shit on me. I felt like yelling that. Instead I did nothing. I have recently learnt that you can also kill a person with silence. I am dealing with my own shit for the first time in about five years. Like really dealing with it. I do not have the energy to handle the things that people are putting on me that really in the end having nothing to do with me. Those issues were all about my friend's partner's insecurities and somehow it became projected on to me. I am not putting up with it though. I am taking a stand right now. I am not going to subject myself to being treated badly. This is not a decision a women who loves herself would make.
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