She-Ra where did you go?

I got drunk tonight. For AVI... Dine out for life was happening and I felt the need to go out and spend $85 on dinner... which meant mostly drinks... which turned into that moment of why doesn't he love me? Not even that. Why doesn't he care enough about me to call and find out if I am OK. I mean clearly I am not OK but still after five years doesn't that deserve some respect? The answer is YES. So many promises made and broken. Everyone says that I think once in a lifetime. At least. I want to get this lesson so I never have to live it again. I turned my phone off so I wouldn't call him in this moment, and I guess somehow that gives me strength. Every day that I don't call him in these moments gives me strength to say I deserve more than this. I am a woman of many levels and I deserve someone who sees all that I am worth and all the levels that I exist on. Wow clearly I am still drunk. I have become all She-Ra on steroids.